desperate.

life. what a wonderful thing to live a life that serves the one who gives life. brings hope. joy. curiousity of the future... understanding that everything will be okay.

Since I last wrote... I have lived in many different places, with a variety of people... the rubbish areas of Indonesia-to a farm tucked away in the hills of Namibia...a dirt road in the middle of the Kalahari desert underneath a million stars...to a sleeping with bugs called 'naughty johns' that chase you... a long-term missionary... pastor and his family...volunteers... local people. Have learned new ways of life... how to see MORE in and through GOD'S eyes... man. I am so blessed to be walking in the truth of him... in his light. to be chosen to see a group of 18 year olds grab ahold of God's heart for their own life... to then transfer it into those they come in contact with...

I love this life God has called me into..never knowing what to expect with tomorrow... but dreaming for the future... for my generation and our broken world to not just be set free...but to STAND AND MAKE A DIFFERENCE. TO FIGHT. TO BELIEVE THAT OUR PRAYERS DO MATTER... GOD HEARS US NO MATTER HOW YOUNG, OLD, RICH OR POOR WE ARE... HE HAS CHOSEN TO USE THOSE THAT ONCE WALKED AWAY...

An example of how I am learning to believe this and live it out is this past week I was in Windhoek, Namibia (africa) with my team when, I was reading James 5:11 and on... about prayer... the prayer of a righteous person... So I felt as a team we needed to be praying more in the morning before we started the day with brekky... So we started too... also in this passage it talks about how Elijah prayed for three years for it not to rain-it didnt and when he prayed for it to rain..it did. I had a thought. WOW. that would be so cool if it rained here this week...since the locals say it is def a blessing when God brings rain... it is a very dry country... So i thought it. Four days later I was meeting with one of my students... it started to RAIN! I got so excited.. because all week I kept asking on different days.. "Do you think it will rain today?" They would laugh, say no... So. I finished praying for my student-then immediately had her pray with me that God would continue to pour himself out on Namibia... right when we were done it started raining again... just a little bit!!!

FElt like God was reminding that he hears my prayers... answers them.. I just dont always see the results immediately and it requires perseverance and fervent prayer.... Well, I was getting up in the mornings around 4:30... did the next morn... yet decided to change my routine a bit and half asleep was thinking/praying that it would rain again.. our last day of ministry... AND right when i finished it started POURING!!!!! It was a beautiful moment for me... i did nothing.. but just that reminder of how powerful God is... how committed he is... how he speaks... it was great... to also see a beautiful Rainbow in the sky as we drove to the preschool my team and I were working with...

Oh... just so desperate to see my generation know God in the way I have come to know him... and I am still getting to know him...

cant update in indo... so write again in 3 weeks... blessings.